Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Sabihin Mo - Hemp Republic

I
Ikuwento mo sa'kin kung ano ang sabi niya
Gusto kong maniwala ano ba ang gusto niya
Ikuwento mo sa'kin kung ano ang tingin niya
Sa galaw ko at ayos ko, sino ba ang gusto niya?

II
Araw-araw ako'y nag-nganaghoy
Walang lakas ng loob na lumapit sa kanya
Mabuti pa ikaw na ang magsabi
At ikuwento mo na lang kung ano ang nangyari

CHORUS
Mahal ba niya ako, ako ba'ng talaga? Sabihin mo...
Ano ba'ng tingin niya sa kilos ko at porma?
Please lang paki-paliwanag ang bawat eksena
Mahal ko na ata, gusto ko na maging maligaya

III
Ikuwento mo sa'kin kung ano ang sabi niya
Gusto kong marining ang iyong mga balita
Itanong mo sa kanya kung may pag-asa pa
Pag-ibig na wagas na alay sa kanya

(Back to II)

OUTRO
Maging masaya... Sa piling niya... Oh... Sa piling mo...

LSS

Mahal ko na 'ata, gusto ko na maging maligaya...sa piling nya

- Hemp Republic's Sabihin Mo
mahal ko na 'ata, gusto ko ng lumigaya...


- Hemp Republic's Sabihin Mo

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

ouch series ba?

"goodnight my Pia"

- bossing (23:38 january 24, 2009)

Monday, January 26, 2009

100

wow! naka-100 posts na pala ako since i started this blog nung 2007. mag-two years na din pala yun. officially, eto ang aking pang-101th post :)

here's to another set of kadramahan, kakiligan, good news and all other products of my idle and imaginative mind

for migraine boy

Friday, January 23, 2009

song of the moment

Migraine
Moonstar 88

Oo nga pala,
Hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito lang ako
Nangangarap na mapa-sayo
Hindi sinasadya
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko
Asan nga ba ako?
Andiyan pa ba sa iyo?

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba 'ko sa'yo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?

Nasusuka ako,
Kinakain na ang loob
Masakit na mga tuhod,
Kailangan bang lumuhod?

Gusto ko lang naman,
Yung totoo
Hindi po ang sagot,
Ay 'di rin isang tanong

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Asan ba ko sayo?

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Dahil 'di na makatulog (makatulog)
Hindi na makakain (makakain)
Dahil 'di na makatawa (makatawa)
Dahil hindi na...

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo
Hanggang dito na lang ako

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Asan ba ko sayo?

Nahihilo, nalilito
Asan ba ko sayo?
Aasa ba ko sayo?
Nahihilo... Nahihilo...Nalilito...

*for migraine boy

Thursday, January 22, 2009

ouch again and again...

i found out na ke ate anne nagrereply ka, pero sa akin deadma ka.

why?

bakit kelangang umiwas ka? did i do or said something na pwedeng maging dahilan ng pag-iwas mo sa akin? as far as i can remember, i've been so careful in choosing my words when it comes to you. i was so careful and attentive sa mga actions ko kasi i was afraid na baka bigla kang maging aloof dahil dun.

pero still, umiiwas ka pa din.

sayang, i thought you were different. you were so nice and almost lahat ng good qualities, nasa sayo na.

and here i am, thinking na i am willing to take the risk if the need arises..


i fell for you roc... very hard..

naiiyak na naman ako

pero sabi nga ng text ni kish the other day,

Pangaral nung bata ka pa na dapat mong tandaan lalo na pag nagmamahal ka:
"wag kang umiyak...
kasalanan mo yan..."


it's my fault, big time. nag-assume na naman ako for the nth time. i expected again. hindi na ko natuto


cry laarni, cry... let the tears and hurt flow


this too shall pass

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

breaktime

Last Sunday night, the gang (minus Tin) had dinner sa Burger King, then coffee sa SBC tapos blueberry chessecake baked by Volt. Heaven! tapos sabayan pa ng kwentuhan namin.
It started with an innocent question kasi nung nasa Burger King kami. Me nakita kasi kaming 2 guy na sabay kumain at sabay din umalis:

Laarni: Volt, hypothetical question
Volt: shoot
Laarni: If magka-boyfriend ka, kakain din ba kayo sa Burger King?
Lester: hahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Volt: (muntik na maibuhos sa akin yung iniinom nyang Coke)
Laarni: hypothetical!
Volt: oo
Lester: If magka-boyfriend ka, magpapa-picture din ba kayo at ipopost mo sa Friendster?
Laarni: hehehehe!
Volt: oo

hanggang sa makarating kami sa bahay nya, tuloy pa din ang mga "hypothetical questions"

Lester: If magkaka-boyfriend ka, ano itatawag mo sa kanya?
Laarni: mahal?
Voltaire: Pare
Lester: parang yung tawagan na lang nila dae "teh"
Laarni: hahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
Voltaire: (malapit na kaming itapon sa labas ng bahay nya)

(take note, lalakeng lalake si Volt ah)

hay... namimiss ko yung mga ganung times. sayang lang hindi na naman kami kumpleto, pero in time... :) thanks for cheering me up.

love you guys!

quote for the month

"ayoko masanay sa mga bagay na pwedeng mawala sa akin..."

- shoutout ni Yda...

Saturday, January 17, 2009

ouch 3

warts

had my warts removed this afternoon after my Admin and Process class... actually asa "frustrated mode" lang ako kaya pinamper ko lang ang sarili ko. ayun, pwede ka ng maglaro ng Connect the Dots sa mukha ko. sana matanggal na to bukas...

exam

had an exam in Admin and Process this morning. hay, bahala na si Batman

on-leave

i took a leave of abscence from my service as a lector. nung una kasi dahil sa nagka-bronchitis ako kaya pinahinga ko muna sarili ko, pero now, itutuloy ko na hanggang february

you

alam mo, since nung wednesday gusto ko ng umiyak. sobrang frustrated ako. i was able to stop myself from communicating with you for almost 3 days. sadly, ok lang sayo. you didn't bother to check what's wrong... i should have known better. bakit? tayo ba?

wala ka din palang pinag-iba sa ibang tao na nagustuhan ko. and you know what the worst thing na naramdaman ko? it's like morch all over again, especially nung time na hinahabol ko siya.. the feeling na hindi ka naman mahalaga at hindi ka naman kawalan kept hounding me...


i thought this could lead to something...

i thought you were different...

i thought that it will be easy forgetting you...

i thought that i can stop myself from falling for you...

post script

watched "Love me Again" last night with lester. ibalik nyo 150 ko!!! ang galing ni angel! but sadly, in my own honest opinion, ang babaw ng story... oh well you can;t have it all. one thing that struck me was Ricky Davao's line when he was convincing Migo (Piolo) to turn his land to a corn field:

"Minsan, may mga bagay na hanggang doon na lang talaga"

minsan laarni, may mga bagay na hanggang doon na lang talaga....

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

de-stresssing

im fuming

kahit it has been 5 hours since i received the "missent" text messages, naiiyak pa din ako

for a person to blatantly spread to other people (a.k.a. chismiss) na "ala yang alam", that's foul

i've lost count the times na you under estimated my capability as a member of our section

the first blow sent me crying

who could forget: "medtech ako" at ang pagsusumbong mo regarding sa ginagawa ko?

but ano nangyari?

authority told you "alam ni laarni ang ginagawa nya"
kablam!

ako na lang ang nag-iisang kumakausap sayo ng matino sa section mo

i don't care kung isa ka sa mga nag-iisip na kaya ko lang nakuha ang position na hinahawakan ko ay dahil lang sa apelyido ko

i think i have proven my worth in my 1 year stay in the Bureau...

eh ikaw? para kang yung mga bacteria na dinidiscuss mo palagi, nilalayuan ka ng mga kasama mo. walang gustong lumapit sayo.

ikaw ang kelangang i-sanitize thoroughly...

marunong akong makisama, i value people around me who treats me well

be thankful, i am loving my work and the people whom i am working with (well, not all, kasi andyan ka)

respect begets respect


My prayer for tonight and for all those days that I'll be working with you:
"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot changed, the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference"


Wednesday, January 07, 2009

post 2

1. Do you wish your previous relationship could have lasted longer?
= IN A WAY, YES. BUT LOOKING BACK, IF EVER THE BREAK-UP DIDN’T HAPPEN IN APRIL 2007, IT WILL STILL HAPPEN SOONER OR LATER

2. What's the most annoying thing about people?
= USER-FRIENDLY AND INCONSIDERATE PEOPLE

3 . What did you last eat?
= PEACH MANGO PIE

4 . What is your full name?
=

5. Name a quote from the song your listening to?
= “WHY CAN’T IT BE, WHY CAN’T IT BE THE TWO OF US”

6. How is life going for you right now?
= QUITE OK

7. How about school?
= STILL HANGING

8. Are you keeping a secret from someone that needs to know the truth?
= WE ALL HAVE SOME SECRETS TO KEEP

9. Who was your last text message from?
= CAN’T REMEMBER

10. What do you think of your siblings?
= LOVE THEM

11. What was the reason you last cried?
= KNOWING THAT HE’S ALREADY COMMITTED

12. What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
= HMM..BAKIT SIYA NAGTEXT?

13. Last time you couldn't take your eyes off someone?
= CHRISTMAS EVE MASS

14. What do most people call you?
= ARNI, LAARNI, NI

15. Who is your crush/bf/gf?
= CRUSH: PEDRO

16. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
= OH YES

17. What do you think of people who don't have s** before marriage?
= I SALUTE THEM

19. Are you more independent or dependent?
= AT SOME POINT, BOTH

20. Ever had the opposite s** over when no one was home?
= SOME GUY FRIENDS

21. Who will you see today?
= JHEN

27. Have you ever been cheated on?
= NO, I HOPE

28 . Girls are ______?
= GOD’S GIFT TO MANKIND

29. Last time you broke a rule?
= A WHILE AGO, WENT TO SM DURING OFFICE HOURS

30. What did you buy the last time you went shopping?
= TOILETRIES

31. Do you give out second chances too easily?
= YES

32. Last car ride?
= KANINA

33. Had plans and broke them?
= DEFINITELY

34. Believe the phrase "Why put off' till tomorrow what you can do today"?
= YES, BUT IT DOESN’T APPLY TO ME HEHEHE

35. What is the last book you read?
= PARA KAY “B”

36 . What are you reading now?
= POSTS

37. Are you a tease?
= NAH

38. Who are you jealous of?
= THE DAUGHTER HAHAHA

39 . What can always make you laugh?
= MY DOG

40 . Where do you see yourself in 4years?
= STILL HERE, TRYING TO BUILD MY OWN FAMILY

post 1

1. Are you serious when it comes to relationships?
= YES, EVERY RELATIONSHIP THAT I GET MYSELF INTO, I ALWAYS SEE TO IT THAT IT IS A SERIOUS THING

2. Are you afraid of commitments?
= NOT REALLY, BUT BECAUSE OF THE RECENT EVENTS, IM MORE CAUTIOUS

3. Are you a risk taker?
= AGAIN, NOT REALLY, BUT IF EVER WE’RE TALKING ABOUT THE “SITUATION”, I AM WILLING TO TAKE THE RISK

4. What can you say about long distance relation ships?
= I SUPPOSE IT’S HARD AT FIRST. BUT AS LONG AS THE TWO OF YOU ARE COMMITTED TO MAKE THINGS WORK DESPITE THE DISTANCE, IT WILL SURVIVE. YOU JUST NEED TO HAVE THE FOLLOWING: COMMUNICATION AND TRUST

5. Can you love a person who doesn't love you?
= DATI NO, BUT NOW MY MANTRA IS “HINDI NAMAN KELANGANG MAGING KAYO PARA MAHALIN MO ANG ISANG TAO”

7. Are you good in handling relationships?
= I GUESS I AM

8. Willing to give everything?
= IF THIS QUESTION WAS ASKED TO ME 2 YEARS AGO, I’D SAY “YES!” WITH CONVICTION. BUT NOW, I HAVE TO HAVE MY BOUNDARIES

9. Best thing you have learned from loving?
= NEVER FALL TOO HARD, YOU’LL NEVER KNOW IF THERE’S SOMEONE TO CATCH YOU WHEN YOU FALL

10. Do you demand your loved one to change into someone you like to?
= NO, BECAUSE WE ARE TWO UNIQUE INDIVIDUALS AND OUR ONLY LINK WITH EACH OTHER IS OUR LOVE

11 . Would you let go of some 1 you love?
= 2 YEARS AGO, I MADE THE PAINFUL DECISION OF LETTING GO OF SOMEONE BECAUSE OF THE FACT THAT HE WANTED OUT OF THE RELATIONSHIP, SO I DID

12. Is s3x important in a relationship?= SO SO13. What is the major reason of a break up?
= LITTLE LOVE, LOSS OF TRUST, INFIDELITY

14. Most important ingredient/s in arelationship?
= LOVE, TRUST, COMMUNICATION, FRIENDSHIP

15. Ever regret loving someone?
= NO

16. One thing you hate about love?
= THE IDEA THAT SOMETIMES SOME GOOD THINGS NEVER LASTS AND THAT THE MOST BEAUTIFUL COUPLE COULD EVENTUALLY FALL APART

17. One thing you like about love?
= THE CONTENTMENT IT BRINGS

18. Worst thing you did to a loved one?
= I ASKED HIM DURING ONE OF OUR TALKS “HINDI KA BA PWEDENG UMABSENT? MAGKANO BA SALARY MO SA ISANG ARAW?”

19. Are you in love?
= NOT SURE

20. What do you feel right now?
= IM NOT SURE…

21. Do you flirt?= I AM LEARNING…. BUT SUBTLE

22. Cheated/have been cheated on??
= NO

23. Does the person you love knows that you love him/her so much?
= HE KNOWS THAT HE’S MY CRUSH

24 . Have you been caught red handed?
= NOPE

25. What attracts you most?
= SMILE, SIMPLICITY, NEATNESS, SENSE OF HUMOR, CAN HANDLE INTELLECTUAL AND SIMPLE CONVERSATION
1. Story behind your primary picture?= feeling model and nageemote nungsummer (",)


Monday, January 05, 2009

resolutions

it is not my custom to make my New Year's resolution/s but due to the current situation, here's my resolutions for this year 2009:

1. I have to stop thinking that the next guy who i will meet is the ONE

2. Tama na ang "pag-lalandi". Back to the old conservative and reserved Laarni

3. Gradually, stop texting Rocky. Sinasaktan ko lang sarili ko. Toinks

4. Try not to be too transparent and open especially to acquiantances lang


*kapag nagawa ko na, iko-cross out ko yan isa-isa

Friday, January 02, 2009

ouch II

just got home from an impromptu coffee session with lester and vincent. i poured my heart out regarding the dilemma that i am into...

i want to cry...

one venti mocha frappucino for Laarni

Thursday, January 01, 2009

ouch

what a way to end 2008...

i asked him if he will be attending the 9PM New Year's Eve Mass last night. he replied "nope, im with my daughter"

ayun, sabi nya he thought i knew daw. he was married last 2000, he's currently in mindoro visiting his daughter. 2x a month daw nya pinupuntahan. sabi pa nya "yes, we are separated"
hindi ko alam kung separated sila as in hiwalay na...

anyway, i really really like him....

ang tanong ko ngayon sa sarili ko: if ever ba, im willing to take the risk? :(