Friday, July 11, 2008

me sakit ako

from peyups.com:

things sa gusto niyong sabihin sa ex-SO niyo...

ke KS (may 17, 2001 - december 19, 2002)...
1. ang weird ng feeling nung makita at makausap kita nung election day

2. buti na lang, hindi ako pumayag sa gusto mo ng secret marriage, haller?!

3. ngayon ko naiisip, what was i thinking kaya naging tayo? hehehe! ang mean ko!

4. sorry, pero wala na ko maalala...

5. tanong mo nga sa wife mo, bakit nya viniew profile ko? eh di nagulat siya kung bakit naging tayo? kasi ang ganda ko... hahaha! joke!

ke Reg (march 29, 2003 - june 2003)
1. miss na kita!

2. sa lahat ng ex ko, ikaw ang pinaka-cool!

3. kelan r&r mo? text mo ko

4. pakabait ka na kasi

5. dapat mo ko imbitahan sa wedding mo

ke Msgt (january 08, 2003 - january 17, 2003; july 11, 2003 - april 09, 2007)
1. ang jologs ng girlfriend mo. kung yan lang ang gusto mo, dapat sinabi mo sa akin (pero come to
think of it, di ko ma-take!)

2. ang tanda mo ng tingnan...bakit nung tayo ang magkasama, parang magka-age lang daw tayo. (it's either muka kang bata, or muka akong matanda? good thing ba yun or bad thing? hehehe)

3. kamusta na ang Timex watch? hehehe

4. nakita mo na ba kung ano ang na-achieve ko? ikaw lang eh, wala kang bilib. akala mo kasi puro lang ako biro, nag-iisip din naman ako. noon lang yun na parang walang direksyon ang buhay ko, pero ngayon, hindi na. pansin mo? andaming magandang nangyari sa buhay ko nung naghiwalay tayo: bigger position, travels, better employment, schooling...

5. i can look in your eyes, and will honestly tell you na im happy and that im over you :)

pahabol....para sa gf ngayon ni Msgt...

1. ang bangs, me binabagayan

2. jologs kung jologs! hahaha!

3. ang friendster, hinde online photo album. pwede ka naman mag-Picassa, o kaya mag- multiply

4. na-meet mo na nanay nya?

5. nameet mo na si Sir DC? sabihin mo kinakamusta ko siya. alam mo bang love ako nun at umaasa pa din na kami pa din ni Msgt sa huli? but i'll break his heart kasi ok na ok na ko

*obvious ba kung sino pinaka-favorite ko sa mga naging boyfriend ko? hindi po ako bitter, given the chance, eto talaga ang mga gusto kong sabihin...

Thursday, July 03, 2008

in memory

she's the biggest among her comtemporaries...


people will remember her as one of the best....






i was very fortunate to have known her and the people around her...





but then, fate decided to have a change of path...





and now, she's gone... along wth 700+ passengers and crew members...










M/V Princess of the Stars
June 21, 2008
*in loving memory of the ill-fated M/V Princess of the Stars which capsized last June 21, 2008 in the waters of Romblon during the typhoon Frank. Almost 700+ bodies of passengers were never recovered along with that of Capt. Marimon, Sir "Dak" Recla, Ship Nurse Erick, Chief Steward and and the Ship Physician*

Friday, June 27, 2008

update

"hehehe tnx sis, i appreciate u, ur honesty, congrats, uve passed a step as a mature adult, handling difficult situations, opening up & being diplomatic abt. things, thank u 4d friendship, i luk 4ward 2d better days 2 come, 2log kn, aga p 2moro work mo, ako il just do sum things, ganun ako eh, gawin n now kesa pagpabukas pa :-) tc. gudnite & god bless"

Sender:
patrick yap.sfc
+639178265648

Sent:
00:01:23
Jun 27 2008

*All's well that ends well. looking at you last night while we were having our dessert made me realize that i am just attracted to you. thanks boss for putting things in a better perspective :)

Friday, June 20, 2008

verbatim

We were going out at least 2 times a week. Kwentuhan, kain, kwentuhan, kain, text messages, late night phone calls…. I tried hard na huwag mahulog talaga ang loob sayo dahil alam ko na wala naming chance na magustuhan mo ko. Biro ko nga sa mga kaibigan ko “masyado kang gwapo para sa akin”.... but i still fell for you. Masisisi mo ba ko kung mag-expect ako kahit konti na baka, baka sakaling me feelings ka din sa akin? Kaya I mustered all the courage I could get, tinanong na kita nung Saturday. I was not ready on what I have learned.... this is a painful experience, and im not proud of what transpired…


Text messages that changed my life…

May I be honest wid u? sorry ha, pro kc wen I said na special ka a month ago, I meant it. And kala ko, mw2la once I get to know u better. Pro d ipla, I know friends tayo and awkward dating sayo. But I jus wnt 2 let it out pra wla akong regrets na di ko cnabi. I really enjoy ur company, and it will be hard kung because of ds, u’l choose 2 put a distance bet. us. But I’l respect ur decision. Madrama ba? Epekto ng black gulaman”

Sender:
09166997835
14-June-2008
23:56:28

His reply:

“hehe cra ka sis, gud morning :-) kaya pala ayaw mo p ng reply ah. Ayaw mo mabara hehehe joke J honestly b4 p nhhalata ko n yan, through ur actions & words, kaso ang hirap nga gaya ng sabi ko sayo n mag assume din basta2, moreso2avoid a good friend, 2a guy double edge sword yan, damn fu do&dnt. La naman ako plan2avoid u, its fine wid me pero sis I hope ive made it all clear, im wid sumbodi & I dnt wana c d day dat we mite part ways just bec. of dis, help me but most of all help urself. I appreciate ur effort in telling d truth & 4 breaking d silence behind d unconcluded story, thank u very very much 4 ur honesty & friendship, I wish 2 know u more in d coming days, magayos muna ako ha, better get ready 4 our occasion, tc & god bless po :-)

Sender:
Patrick yap.sfc
+639178265648
07:37:53
Jun 15 2008

My reply:

“I just read ur msg. I have no plans of ”destroying” your, or anyone’s, relationshp. This was something na hndi ksama sa mga pnaplano ko. Kung ano ung pnakita ko sayo, un ako, no pretensions. And yes, it’s clear 2 me now. Ingat ka”

Sender:
09166997835
15-June-2008
15:51:32


His reply:

“teka teka sis… I can sense some misunderstanding, dko po cnsabing ud destroy my relationship, wat I sed was I dnt want our friendship 2 end bec. of dis, I think I sed it correctly naman, hope ive cleared d issue, k po b tayo? J kaya cgro deadma k kanina pa hehe kaw talaga, san k? nag grocery muna kami, nagsesenti parin mama ko s pagalis ng mga bata hehehe tc :-)”

Sender:
Patrick yap.sfc
+639178265648
16:10:41
Jun 15 2008

Dahil hindi ako nagreply, eto ang text nya kinabukasan:

”gud am sis, uve silent since l8 lastnite, I dnt rily know wat d prob. Is, all I want u2 know is dat nothings changed between us, wir stil friends. Its kinda awkward 4 me 2b txtn u dis way, parang guilty ako kc ive ur not txtn me I mustve done sumtin kaso I cant figure it out myself. I honestly dnt like d feeling kc uve done dis 2 me several times already in different occasions, I nhope u cud straighten me out wid dis, I dnt tink its fair dat im always @ receiving end of dis scenario, fu rily value me as a friend u wnt make me go on a wild goose-chase guessing wats happening. Hope u r doin fine, tc & god bless”

Sender:
Patrick yap.sfc
+639178265648
10:03:28
Jun 16 2008

I replied:

“hi, just finished my inspections. I just needed 2 rest my mind kya hndi ako ngre2ply khapon. I did not know na ur already wid somebody. Ang alam ko, ur dating. I guess pareho pla. Actually, I feel awful but I dnt regret anything. Thank you 4 d assurance dat everything is still ok wd us”

Sender:
09166997835
16-June-2008
11:22:58


His reply:

“it was a recent event, I never tot it wud mind kc I already told u dat I was havin sumtin wid sumone already & u wer aware naman. Its gud things r ok bet. us, tc, dnt 4get ur lunch.”

Sender:
Patrick yap.sfc
+639178265648
11:25:45
Jun 16 2008

Friday, June 13, 2008

para mabura ko na

"hindi ko akalain, magagawa mo yun. Ngayon naniniwala na ko na gagawa ka nga ng paraan para hindi na ko makita at makausap. Pinadala ko yung mga text para lang ipakita na minsan, minahal mo din ako. Salamat sa mga bagay na pinagdaanan natin, salamat sa pagmamahal mo. Sa mga pagkukulang at pagkakamali ko, sana you'll find in your heart na patawarin ako. Sana sumaya ka na at sana matupad mo yung mga pangarap mo. Gustuhin ko man na ako ang unang tumawag sayo ng Atty. ________, alam kong niloloko ko lang sarili ko. For the last time gusto ko pa din maging honest sayo, im a broken person. Matatagalan bago ulit ako ngingiti. Ganun pa man, sana lagi mong maalala na minsan at hanggang ngayon, me taong tumanggap, nagmahal, tatanggap at patuloy na magmamahal sayo - laarni"

Recipient: 09276141624
Sent: 00:58:46
Apr 12 2007

"Tin, natauhan na ko. Kakayanin ko na to, alam ko it will be a slow and painful process of healing. Tama kayo, its time for me to finally let go and of him and the relationship. God has better plans for me. This too shall pass... salamat sa pagsama nyo"

Recipient:
Tin
+639178307570
Sent:
01:07:42
Apr 12 2007

*Update*
he already has a girlfriend. saw it in his friendster account. and by the looks of it, he seems so inlove with the her. puro pics na nila ng girl ang nakalagay... i admit i was hurt but what surprised me the most is the fact na hindi ako naiyak, not even a single tear. mature na! hehehe.