four years after

Just because you're used to it, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt anymore

Yearender

2014 gave me so many things to be thankful of and last night, I only prayed for one thing: Acceptance. To be able to accept things that I cannot change, to understand what is not for me. Acceptance will allow me to be free from the shackles of denial and move forward in life. They say that today is the start of a new book, 365 pages of blank paper awaits me. I plan to fill it with notes about brand new opportunities, anecdotes of travels (yes, I plan on doing that Sagada trip), stories of new adventures, profile of new acquaintances, schedule of exciting activities and hopefully, details of something that I've been putting off for one year. Hello 2015!

happy 30th birthday G

tan tan tanan

My first love (not my 1st boyfriend) tied the knot last Saturday. I was having a hard time composing my tweet, my hands were shaking. And after seeing their pictures and on-site video, I was crying. Honestly, after seven years, a part of me still hoped that we will still end up together but maybe God has better plans for the two of us. Thank you CM for the love and for everything that you have taught me. I will always smile each time your name will come out. Your bride looked stunning, and her gown, so elegant. And wow, Manila Hotel? You really prepared for it :-)

I wish you two well.

She is your happy ending, and I am still waiting for mine to come. 

saying goodbye: HIMYM series finale

can't wait to go home today and crawl in my bed and watch the series finale of my favorite TV show. nine seasons, more than 200 episodes, five amazing friends, and the search for Ted Mosby's "the one". I'll try not to cry too much later. it will be bittersweet and legendary.

update:

it wasn't the perfect ending that almost everyone was waiting for, but for Ted Mosby, it was the ending that he wanted since the 1st episode: him having kids and ending up with Robin, his one true love. It was the story of Ted's journey of searching, waiting and finally finding the one.

Aww moments:
1. Barney saying that  "if it wasn't going to happen with Robin, it wasn't going to happen with anyone"
2. Finding out that the Mother died
3. Marshall and Lily throwing the last Halloween party and saying goodbye to the apartment. The part where Robin said that "The five of us hanging out at MacLaren's doing stupid things is over." and leaving Lily crying in the middle of the empty apartment
4. The final appearance of the blue french horn (I can still remember Ted saying to Robin "I would have stolen the whole orchestra for you")

5. and Barney's moment with Ellie “You are the love of my life. Everything I have and everything I am is yours. Forever,”