four years

April 09, 2007

Four years ago, someone broke my heart. it shattered me to pieces, thus, the birth of this blog wherein i can pour out my heart's pains.

For the longest time, I was a broken person with a broken heart. And then eventually, I was able to move on, slowly but surely.

Though I have not been in a relationship until now, the experience made me know myself more, and in knowing, comes loving :)

whose fault?

Di mo kasalanang mahalin siya.
Pero di rin niya kasalanan kung di niya magawang mahalin ka

people are perpetually attracted to those who they can't get..

nasasaktan na ko sa mga nangyayari. Darating din pala yung panahon na mapapagod ako sa paghihintay sa wala. i'm still clinging to that little hope that i have that maybe, things will turn 180 degrees in favor of me. Pero dapat ko na din isipin ang sarili ko, nakaka-awa na din kasi kung titingnan sa mata ng ibang tao. Pilit kong isinisiksik ang sarili ko sa isang (dalawang) tao na obvious naman na hindi ako gusto.

Bakit kaya yung mga taong hindi ka pwedeng mahalin ang siya namang pilit mong minamahal. Siguro kung magagawan ng solusyon ang mga ganitong situation, konti na lang ang malungkot sa mundo.

sana G, sinabi mo naman sa akin kung ano ang problema o reason kung bakit bigla bigla na naman mo akong hindi kinakausap.

"d worst feeling isn't loneliness its wen that someone makes u feel special then suddenly leaves u hanging.and you just have to pretend that you dont mind."

cdo

G,

im here in cdo since yesterday morning. you knew it ahead of time, and yet you didn't even bother to contact me... i know that it's not your responsibility to do so, but still, im hurt.
i love you, even if you don't love me back

pia

post-radiation realization

after all the stress caused by the radiation scare, i have realized this:

"i am loving the job that i have and everything that comes with it: the stress, pressure, lessons and insights taught by bossing, endless meetings, overtime and even the "tsismis", yes, even that . Taking my mind off on some things is a plus factor it offers."