Monday, July 16, 2007


***i wrote the article below September 30, 2004 and was published in my Friendster blog October 28 of the same year. This was during the time that he broke up with me. He accepted to continue the relationship, it lasted for almost 3 years..


ANTICIPATION

Yesterday I experienced one of the most difficult day of my maturing life. You decided to end up the bond that we are currently enjoying for some time, with no definite reason at all. Yes you, who essayed his feelings with fervent behavior, who promised that would join me in facing life's challenges. You, who never give up even though, a couple of times, I already wanted to. The person whom I love the most, you. But with just a snap of a finger, you resolute to finally put an end to our relationship.


What happened to us? The problems were there definitely like what other couples are facing and experiencing. Yet, unlike them we resolve those troubles together, hand in hand. We are firmed in solving them for we promised that nothing would ever come in our way. The past few months were like of a roller coaster ride. We disagree over trivial matters, and then we make up. And the cycle continues. After each fight, the promise of love was always there. Thus I thought everything was smooth sailing, but my notion was wrong, hence your pronouncement.


It is ironic to think that almost 2 years ago, I heard the same verdict also coming from you. After half a year, you asked for a chance to try it all over again, this time with a promise that we, you and I, will make it better. I accepted, for the simple reason that I am not yet over you. It was a miracle that I was praying for over the months. Today, I am facing the same dilemma; will I let go and move on or fight for what I consider is right? I did the former once; do I have to do it again?


Now, I choose to do the latter. For I promised myself during one moment that we are in the church that I would only leave you once the feeling is gone, or if there is another person involve. You also told me the similar thing. Once one of us fell out of love, there is no more sense in continuing. If your reasons are not what I had mentioned, then I will not let you go without fighting for you. Whatever problems you are facing currently, steadfast my dear, we will surpass them together, with not just you or I doing the resolving.


The question now is, will you accept? Will you give this relationship another chance? Do not let your decision be affected by the tears that you see, or the pleading eyes that you are looking at, nor the earnest assertion of my love. Let your assessment comes from the heart, sincere and true.I don't want to lose you. If the Great Man there in heaven will allow, I want to spend forever with you. If this is the last time, let me say once again say how much I really love you, not just with my heart but also with all of me. I love you not because of many reasons, but in spite of many other reasons.


dream_light 09/30/2004

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